My Weekend [29 Mar 2004|12:41am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | no music...just watching the OBLONGS on cartoon network ] Alrighty...well I don't know if you knew that I fractured my knee back in October. Okay I know damn that was a while ago, but I am sooo stubburn and I continue to do activities on my knee and it keep getting re-injured. So finally like one day it felt all better...I was like "Hell yah"...so I got invited to thin Von Dutch (the clothing company) party in Fullerton and so I got some of my sista from my sorority to go and we had hella goood time. Like man I have never had soo much fun before. They had punk bands (HELL YAH -4- Bridget, cause she likes punk band guys) and inside they had the party. I drank like a champ and umm yah....finally like at the end of the night, after Bridget gets done dancing like a hoe, there goes my knee again...POP and know I am slightly cripple again. But no worries I am getting better. OKay so basically the rest on my weekend consisted of working and I mean working my butt off. I literally worked from like 9am until 11pm friday, saturday, and sunday...and let me tell you, although I made some bank this weekend, I am sooo poooped and need to relax...(or need someone to help me relax...hahaha use ur imagination...) Well today(Sunday) my mom and I had one of those "What I do wrong talks" and man I hate those. I mean I know I havn't had one for a long time cause I was doing well, but it all started because I told my mom one of our old employees wanted to be re-hire and then it was sad fest from there. I dunno sometimes....people just don't understand me and why I am the way I am. I wish that people would stop complaining about their life and look at me and realize that I am not happy and instead of being selfish and talk about u....just simple listen to what I have to say and not make fun of me cause I get make fun of everyday...Sometimes I like it....but most of the time, I don't...well anyways I am gonna continue to stare at the monitor until I figure out how to keep myself entertained... post comment

My werid weekend [15 Mar 2004|09:59am] Okay where do I even start about my weekend. It was one of those weekends where it was starting off really great and then like it went really BAD, and the all of a sudden really good. OKay so like usual I go to work on Friday at Thomas Station. I wouldn't exactly call it work though, cause I don't do much, I like to call it sociolizing while I get paid time. So while I was sociolizing, I was thinking about how do I make things spicier with my giddy guy. Plans, thougt, man everything I could think of was comming into my mind, but none of them seemed to be the right one. Mainly cause after my ex and I broke up, I told myself, never let a guy get close to you like he did. So from there on, I really have never felt any emotions for any guy before. I would, I guess play them. Get them to think that I liked them and wanted them and after I got what I wanted, then I was like okay next. Yah I know what u r thinking, man girl ur a bitch. But if you knew half of what my ex did to me, you would really understand why I do this. Well okay, let me tell you, I wanted my giddy guy, and guess what I got my giddy guy. Yah I know, u go girl. But now I feel bad, or werid, or confused, I really don't know. I mean I worked so hard to get giddy guy, but now I am like I want him again, but in the sense of anything sexual. Its like this giddy guy has wooowed me, but I don't know if I want to be woooowed. Or maybe I really do and I am scared of what it may become. Well I guess you can say, I really like giddy guy, I mean why would I nickname hime "giddy guy" if he doesn't truely get me giddy when I talk to him. The one thing that I am confused on is that I know he talks to a lot of gals, and I hear his stories about them, and I don't want to be one of those gals in the stories. Okay enough on that one, on to the next night, (SATURDAY) okay again I had to go to work aka sociolize, and had fun I guess there. Seem to be more fun than usual, maybe because of what happened between me and giddy guy. So after work I go home and soo wanted to go to this concert, but my roomies were all sick from getting drunk at a rave so they were lame and went home or stayed in bed and watch TV. So what did I do, man I found some other friends to go out with. Went out had fun at concert, then went to a party in Whittier. OKay this is the really bad part. I have a eating problem, and sometimes I skip meals, or simply I don't like to eat, so I don't. I know this is bad, but there is a reason why I do this. So like you shouldn't do this esp if you are drinking cause it makes things 10Xtimes worse. Well I drank like a champ and ended up like truely getting drunk and sick. I have never gotten truley drunk before where I didn't know how to control myself. Apparently I threw up on some gal that didn't liek me too much, she comes over and slaps me and then starts beating the shit out of me, so I get my drunk ass up and start kungfooing her. Man things were out of control, so this huge guy, like damn muscle huge, had to come over pick me up and take me away to somewhere were I can cool off and get fix cause man I was beat up. But not as bad as the gal was, soooo GOOOO MEEE!!! Well I ended up spending the rest of the night in the bathroom crying cause man I dunno, I just went into one of my depression moods and I couldn't take anything cause my friends thought I had alchol posioning. So i puked, and puked, and puked, and then my stomach started hurting and I couldn't keep anything down, not even water, so I was going into shock cause I didn't know what was wrong, but this huge guy was super nice. He stayed with me the whole night and told me that I was going to be okay and if needed he would take me to the hospital. OKay so what did I learned from this weekend, well I realized that I have an eating disorder, I use alchol as a way to escape my problems, and I need to get my mind straight and let the pass go and think about my future. I know this is going to be really hard for me, because I have a hard time realizing what I am doing to myself is bad. But I would like to thank all my friends that have been there for me during these past 2 months and you have keep me from attempting to do stupid stuff to myself. I think without you, my family, and my work aka sociolizing crew, that I wouldn't have ever experience what I did this weekend and realize that I need to change. I want to thank JOHN, yah u know which one u are buddy, okay if u don't know the one in rancho cucamonga, because no matter what, he always says the nicest things about me and he at times really makes me come back to reality. So thank you sooo much and you are the best person anyone could ever have. And I know I probably bugg the shit out of giddy guy this weekend, but thank you for dealing with it and actually calling me and texting me cause you made me realize that people do care about me and I am sorry if I acted weirder this weekend, and it is definatley not cause of friday, but thank you cause I realize that I can trust you and I hope you can trust me too...well enough of all this emotional talk, I am going to work out and then eat some lunch, keep the lunch in me and then go to class and get really smart and use my brain like I am supposed to...bye post comment

Life in the LBC [10 Mar 2004|10:24pm] [ mood | giddy ] Okay well life in the LBC is quite good right now. Aww the weather is nice and hot...perfect for me to wear skimpy clothes...oh yah. Well lets see here, I guess why the LBC life is soo good is because of my giddy guy. Okay Well only special people know who the giddy guy is. Okay so like we have been talking for the past two weeks almost like everynight. Its really great cause I would never thought that a guy like him would actually talk to me other that what our actual relationship is. Okay for all you confused people...you just have to know all the info. See I can't give out too much details cause what if he is reading this and says OMG that's me...so N-E-Ways....we talk a lot, and I think he is a sweet wonderful guy. Sometimes I wonderif he is just playing around because some of his friends say he is very flirtatous, but then again I am too and I am not messing around with him....all the talk I say to him, I mean it. Okay well I have to go...cause I am all giddy right now...lol post comment

Purity Test [21 Jan 2004|06:26pm] Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... Category Your Score Average Self-Lovin' 65% Explored the pleasures of the flesh 65% Shamelessness 78.6% Has yet to see self in mirror 79.4% Sex Drive 65.8% A fool for love, but not always 77.7% Straightness 25% Done the nasty, but not creatively 44.9% Gayness 98.2% Repressed, are we? 83.5% Fucking Sick 93.8% Refreshingly normal 89.9% You are 72.38% pure Average Score: 72.6% Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up! 1 comment|post comment

The eye guy in my math class [17 Jan 2004|12:20am] [ mood | In loved...head in the clouds ] [ music | The song I wrote and sang at a SONY concert. ] Okay people say that there sometime isn't love at first site....hahaha...for a while I didn't believe love at first site, but after seeing this guy in my math class, I am sooo a believer. He is very cute, he has a tattooo, a piercing....hummy...he is everything that I dream off. I have been wanting to talk to him all week but I have never got the balls to do so until Wednesday, (1/14/04). I have been planning how to talk to him...let me tell you the story. I purposly let my math book at home so that I could share a book with him. I did at first I didn't know what to say cause I was soo nervous. So we had a lunch break. I ate lunch with my friend Danielle and she said that the eye guy is really hot. I was like yah i know. So break is over, we go back to class and the guy starts flirting with me and messing around. I was totally in heaven. Okay class is over and I walk with Danielle to the parking lot. OKay she tells me that I am lucky to be sharing a book with him and I was like yah why do u think I left my book at home. Okay so I had this brilliant idea that we should go ask him if he wants to study. Okay so here i am shaking cause I am nervous and we follow him to the administration buliding on campus and wait for him to get done with his adminst. stuff. OKay so i finally walk over to him and ask what he is doing later that night and asked if he wanted to study....he was busy with work...so he didn't study with us....but I finally did it...Bridget approached her first guy and talk to him nervous and sweaty hands in all. I give sooo much props to guys that approch women...OKay so whatz next....PLAN B....On monday I am going to give him my phone number and tell him that he needs to call me if he has any problems with math...man I only have one more week with him until the class is over....okay so what happens after that...well I am going to gove him a lil note telling him if he ever wants to hang out...to call me....yah now lets see if i get all the balls to complete PLAN B and C...hahaha...i'll keep u informed.... post comment

I injured my knee [04 Dec 2003|07:10pm] Alrighty...Bridget has done it again. The other day I was dancing cause I have a show on friday and I fell and hurt it. Man its such a bitch to be injured. On top of that the next day I got a $150 ticket cause i parked in the wrong parking space at my gay ass school. Man those parking services people have huge ass sicks up their holes. Here is nice Bridget on crutches trying to go to the hospital to get herself all taken care off and that damn mean ass guy is like here is yor ticket. GRRRR. Well I'm jimpy again...man that's no fun all the hott guys are not gonna talk to me now that I am a jimpy....or maybe...hmm who nows...okay well I have to get back to my fashion show...I'm being stupid walking aroudn in my new boots and my so call dress...that is reall a semi long jacket that goes to my bootie. post comment

My GUY story [01 Dec 2003|02:53pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | AFI's secret song on their new album ] Okay well, where do I start. My life is all messed up right now. I had a boyfriend for two years and one day he decieded that he didn't want to be with me. Why are guys such dicks like that. I mean I really liked this guy and I would give and do anything for him. But now things are over. I try and go out and meet new people, but like every guy I talk to is all into sex and sex only. MAN can't a girl just talk to a guy without mentioning sex. I know that I might look good and probably every man wants to swipe his card down my woohaa...(that is a dirty joke) but there is more to me than sex. I want a guy that is super sweet and has more to talk about than sex. Okay let me tell you about some of the recent guys I have meet. * Andy: Yah this guy is super hot and he is a professional soccer player. I went out with him one night and thought things were going great...but I don't know what happened. For a week he called me everyday and like I would go crazy and scream with happiness cause he would call me and like now he is like Bridget who? * Tim: Okay i think Tim is like every women's fantasy guy. He is sponsored by volcom and he really super cute. He would take me to tons of the volcom parties and I felt like a queen cause people where like of you are Tim's date. Give her what she wants... you know they treated me like I was their goddess when I would go to the parties with Tim. But I found out that he only wants to be hook-up buddies. * Ole: Okay well here is another women's fantasy guy. Ole is a professional skater and is damn right HOT. I just meet him, and he is soo sweet and kind, oh and super funny. Okay you are probably saying that he sounds like a good guy Bridget, so what am I fussing about, well he is my co-worker. Okay that doesn't sound that bad, well it will when I tell you I am the manager at my work and he is one of my stock guys. OUCH. I don't know what to do about him. Cause I really want to know him better and plus he told me that he only has relationships with brown hair people. I'm a brown hair gal. * The guy across the Hall:Okay what is with the secret name. Well not many people know about this guy, well except that I think he is really cute. The guy across the hall is like the ultimate guy that I am attractive to. He has this really cute look and such beautiful eyes that guy takes your breath away. He is really, and I mean really sweet and nice. The first night I hung out with him, I was buzzed and I just wanted to kiss him cause he has these lips that are wooo. Man i don't even have a word to describe his lips. I want to go out with him one night and chill...but I am scared of asking him if he wants to hang out, cause he really doesn't talk, maybe he is just shy. Well if anyone knows how to help me...please let me know. post comment

Dorm Life [17 Oct 2003|11:08pm] [ mood | energetic ] Well I am having a blast living in the Dorms...let me tell you a bit about the people in my dorm. *Allison (A113)- She is a sweat, gal that is sooo a valley gal...haha girly. She has this boy that goes to Davis, and gets all crazy when she is going to visit him, yah you know what I mean. *Kiresha (A113)- You are soo cute and sweat. I love your personality and you remind me when I was 18. Be a party animal for life and remember RHO PHI TAU is here for you. *Tori (A117)- This gal is crazy over Dashboard Confession. You are a great gal that I love to be around. You always bring a smile to my face and helps me when I am a gimp. *Dianna (A117)- You are very funny and weird like me, you go girl. Although you go to your man's house like everynight, you always make me laugh, esp with your 5 hour showers. *Adrinne (A119)- Girl man what can I say, you are like my twin but shorter. I love that you are open about things and we always end up talking about weird crazy stuff. Haha....yah get it BOO. *Elle (A119)- Man gorly, you and your Hella, well whenever anyone hears No Doubts Hella Good, you better be thinking about Elle because that's is the only word she knows...haha...don't worry about your quizes score, well improve you on those. *Ann (A125)- You are an inspiration to be. You make me realize that school is my future and you encourage me to study and get drunk at the same time. You are an awesome dancer and a great friend. *Ashley (A123)- Man POT president, you are crazy, funny, and weird...just the way I like my friends to be. We always seem to find fun and we make the party happen. Sisterhood for life. *Traci (A123)- You are my partner in crime. We are ESNF people, no wonder why we get along, we are like twins. Well you have blonde hair and I have wanna be blonde...haha...Lets get kucky, Rho Phi Tau for life. *Miranda (A119)- Girl you are funny and soo great to have as a roomie...We have a lot in common and I am glad that we are roomies this year. You make the dorm experience a whole lot better with your personality. *Bridget (A119)- Girl you are the best gal in the whole world. You are soo funny and crazy. I love it that you have those DAMN STRAIGHT moments...hahaha...okay I told you I have an ego about myself...haha post comment

Rho Phi Tau [17 Oct 2003|10:46pm] [ mood | high ] Okay as everyone knows, I am a huge sorority fan...well let me tell you about my new sorority that I am in. It's called Rho Phi Tau, and we are the bomb. We are a group of girls that love to party and overall have a great time hanging out. We bring sisterhoob to a hole new level. Okay some of you are like...Bridget when did you join a sorority...well this kinda happened over night. See we are not an offical sorority, we are more like an anti-sorority, but we still do what offical sororities do. Yes we have our MOnday night meetings (aka: margarita night), we go out on sisterhood events (Knotts Scary Farm, Laguna Beach), we have our monthly dues (liquor runs), and of course we have all the fighting, drama, and laughter. Haha...okay, well I am the event cordinator and we are currently having rush right now, so what are you waiting for, become a Rho Phi Tau. WHO IS THE BEST SORORITY AT CSULB...RHO...PHI...TAU 4 ME...RHO PHI TAU...RHO PHI TAU...FOREVER LET US WAVE OUR BANNER HI, HI, HI...RHO PHI TAU, RHO PHI TAU, SISTERHOOD IS THE PLACE FOR ME, me. Be lucky and join POT, and sisterhood will be your life. post comment

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